Wednesday, October 10, 2007
My walk with God in the rain
So I went on a walk yesterday. I know you’re thinking that I must be really bored. Well you’re right. I’m really glad I did though. I went on the walk, and started talking to God. I never really completely reconciled with Him since our big fight. I was able to do that. Then it rained. It came down, and soaked me through. It felt good. I felt happy, content. I felt like I could start all new again. Anyway, I still want to know God a lot more… maybe yelling at Him isn’t always the way to do it, but I think it helped me a bit this time.
Monday, October 8, 2007
How it all started
All this started with me being really mad at God. I know God exists. I know He's powerful, but why wasn't He doing what I thought He should? Sounds simple, and it's something that should have been easy, but it wasn't... not even close.
It all started when I was on my way to see a friend. I got stuck in traffic, so I tried to call instead. However, I was in a bad reception area, and we kept getting cut off. I then received a call from another friend asking for advice, and I kept getting cut off there as well. I asked God to let my calls go through, but He didn't. So, I figured I was supposed to pray rather then talk. this lasted for a while until I got a text from my friend... I triend to simply send Him back a text telling Him that I was praying, but it wouldn't go through. I prayed for God to send it through truly beleiving that it would happen... but it didn't. Nothing. I asked God why... I got nothing in return. Anyway this all seems insignificant, but the situation quickly became a yelling match. The yelling match ended in an ultimatum where I basically said "Be a real God, or I'm done. I know you are real, but if you can't do something this simple for me then I'm not going to serve you."
I eventually got through to one of my sisters, and she read to me a part of Job that was really incouraging... oh, and by the way... I lost service, but I could still hear her through the whole passage. So, I'm giving it another try. God seems to have sent me a "dude, I'M GOD!!!" message. So, I'm going to totally sell out for Christ even more than I have been. Go big or Go home!!! I'll be Chronicling my devotions, struggles, and witness. So if you're reading this, send a prayer my way, and then go ask yourself some hard questions.
It all started when I was on my way to see a friend. I got stuck in traffic, so I tried to call instead. However, I was in a bad reception area, and we kept getting cut off. I then received a call from another friend asking for advice, and I kept getting cut off there as well. I asked God to let my calls go through, but He didn't. So, I figured I was supposed to pray rather then talk. this lasted for a while until I got a text from my friend... I triend to simply send Him back a text telling Him that I was praying, but it wouldn't go through. I prayed for God to send it through truly beleiving that it would happen... but it didn't. Nothing. I asked God why... I got nothing in return. Anyway this all seems insignificant, but the situation quickly became a yelling match. The yelling match ended in an ultimatum where I basically said "Be a real God, or I'm done. I know you are real, but if you can't do something this simple for me then I'm not going to serve you."
I eventually got through to one of my sisters, and she read to me a part of Job that was really incouraging... oh, and by the way... I lost service, but I could still hear her through the whole passage. So, I'm giving it another try. God seems to have sent me a "dude, I'M GOD!!!" message. So, I'm going to totally sell out for Christ even more than I have been. Go big or Go home!!! I'll be Chronicling my devotions, struggles, and witness. So if you're reading this, send a prayer my way, and then go ask yourself some hard questions.
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